ON MY OCTOBER WISHLIST...

Monday, October 16, 2017

STARTING OVER

 

hey guys IT’S BEEN AWHILE, HASN’T IT?

I've always had the best intentions with this blog but the worst follow through and life just wouldn't let me be great these past months, so I'm really sorry theres not been much action on here but let me explain whats been going on with me...

I would be the first to say that I have yet to nail "adulting"...in all seriousness who do I contact to raise a grievance for my unrealistic view that life is as easy as: get the grades, get the job, find the one, settle down, buy a house, buy a car, have children, live happily ever after...
Then again you only have to look on Instagram to see people you know (and dont know) achieving the above...and sometimes even more. BUT INSTAGRAM IS NOT REAL? Yea buddy I hear you, but that doesn't change the fact I've been stuck in a rut in many areas of my life for too long, especially in my work life.

Work and money aren't everything when you prioritise them above your actual life and you know what else no one is going to put your life first, thats on YOU and you alone.
The first six months of 2017 taught me these lessons the hard way and in July when I finally opened myself to really listen I handed in my (very overdue) resignation letter, it was time to jump off the hamster wheel I had let run my life for the last four years.

I am finally free!!


then reality comes knocking...


Leaving my job was hands down the best decision I've made for myself in a long while, I dont regret it for one minute, but I wasn't prepared for how it would affect me emotionally. I was unhappy in my job, like really hated it, but while I was ecstatic to be out of there, I also started to feel lost without it. I had made work my main focal for so long that without work, what was my purpose now?

When I started to envision my future I was afraid. I would cry and the question "What do I do now?" plagued me everyday and counteracted my positive thinking to fuelling days of doing nothing but watching TV, Youtube and scrolling Instagram. In the past I had always complained about not being able to look for another job because "I didn't have the time", I couldn't blog consistently because "I didn't have the time", I couldn't go to that event because "I didn't have the time" but here I was, in my dressing gown with plenty of time...and not an ounce of motivation. 

I remained in a lull, until my mum forced me to speak about my feelings, parents really do have this superhuman ability to help you rationalise your wild, wild, wild thoughts...lol I couldn't help itAnd I began to understand that I needed some time to decompress from it all,  my mind, body and soul was unpacking years of pent up energy and the mixed emotions were just a part of my healing process. 
it'S ok not to be ok! It was like dealing with a break up and I had broken up with the most unhealthiest situation. I was grieving and its important to grieve loss because loss freaking hurts and in order to get over it you need to acknowledge it, because if you dont and you move on too quickly sometimes your just deluding yourself you've really let it go

Yup, told you my Mum's a G...

Towards the end of August I started to feel better but I just couldn't bring myself to blog, sorryThen along came September, my birthday month and in true Lavinya style I began to evaluate my life: unemployed, single, still living at home, dust in my savings account and a dead social life.

I dont have my shit together AND I was turning another year older. 

*groan* reality sucks.

SHOP THE LOOK



THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE

You may think that I was being too hard on myself but actually this "life evaluation" is probably just what I've needed to wake myself up.

If you were in debt you would look at where you've been going wrong with your money and plan how your going to better your financial situation...so why shouldn't you do this with your life! Everyone, every once in a while, should evaluate their life path/plan, just to make sure your still on the right track and guys I'm really not. Its human to naturally stay in our comfort zone. The comfort zone is our default setting of living that requires little effort at all, ultimately your a "someday" type of person. "Someday" people don't actively pursue living or their goals because their forever putting off what needs to be done until "someday" which means that four years can go by and your in the exact same place you started. Exhibit A: Me.

Honesty is a powerful tool, definitely by no means easy to face but very necessary if you really want to see change and if you find yourself where I am now, desperate for change, then were both in the middle of the road faced with two directions:

LIVING LIFE BY DEFAULT AKA THE COMFORT ZONE  <----------------- ME ----------------->  LIVING YOUR LIFE BY DESIGN AKA ACTIVE PURSUIT

One nudges you into the path of change and the other keeps you in the life your accustomed to. Whatever you choose understand that your the only one accountable for that choice. Your in the driving seat of your life and from now on theres no room for excuses. 
I have chosen to 'Live my life by design' to actively turn "Someday" into NOW. It will require effort and I will encounter failures but as long as I'm still trying, I'm still moving forward.

I hope this inspires you the way it has inspired me, and that you realise theres no shame in starting again. All is not lost if you've fallen off your path...

JUST START OVER
Lavinya - x


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Sunday, September 24, 2017

MY SEPTEMBER BEAUTY WISHLIST

Hey guys welcome back to my blog! Todays post is a BEAUTY WISHLIST!

This past summer I've been glued to Youtube watching makeup guru's Jackie Aina, MakeupShayla, Desi Perkins and Lusterlux on heavy rotation. I absolutely love them and you should definitely check out their channels because they have really reignited my love for makeup and skincare and I really inspired me to maybe give Youtube a go!, so I thought I would put together a wishlist of a number of products I would love to try and add to my growing (but essential lol) collection!



Rimmel Fix & Perfect Primer // 30ml £6.99 
I tested this primer in store and absolutely love that it has a cream texture and keeps skin mattified and shine free!
Sunday Riley Luna Sleeping Night Oil // 30ml £85.00
I want this to be a part of my night time routine soo bad! Clearer skin and minimised pores while I sleep? YES PLEASE!
Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer // Caramel // 6ml £23.00
Well loved by many and owned by most makeup bloggers; I'm persuaded to retire my trusty NC42 Mac Pro Longwear Concealer.
Fenty Beauty Killawatt Freestyle Highlighter // Trophy Wife // £26.00
I am so excited for this makeup line and this intense gold highlight says "she got money" and I am here for it!
Barry M Matte Me Up Metallic Lip Kit // Prestige // £6.99
Nudes & pinks are my staples but its time to get brave with colour & I've seen it look really lovely on the lips.
Maybelline Master Strobe Liquid // 25ml 7.99
I only ever use powdered highlighters and I would love to give this liquid highlighter a try.
Pixi Glow Tonic // 250ml £18.00
I first used this toner after receiving it via a pop-up shop, since then I've used others but I am craving the glow this toner gave my skin & NEED it back in my skincare routine asap!
Fenty Beauty Pro Filter Soft Matte Longwear Foundation // Shade 370 // 32ml £26.00
It's refreshing for a makeup brand to have 40 foundation shades and a picture of each shade on actual models, it really helps when it comes to choosing the right colour.
Sanctuary Spa Salt Scrub // 650g £13.00
Home pamper days call for this scrub. It leaves skin feeling silky smooth & refreshed like to went to the spa but you never left your house.
Barry M Glitter Rush Body Glitter // Desert Bronze // £4.59
I am obsessed with glitter eyeshadow looks, I have tons of instagram vid tutorials pinned for just this reason! I am determined to get eyeshadow skills aced this year!

What beauty products are on your wishlist at the moment?

Lavinya - x


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Tuesday, August 01, 2017

BANTU KNOTS


Hey guys the braids are gone :( letting go of the braid life was hard but they were snatching my edges harder than Beyoncé's announcement of her baby twins names...
I'm really in the mood to experiment with new protective hairstyles and I after taking down my braids I randomly decided to do bantu knots with some left over braiding hair using the rubber band method. *Quick tut* (I parted my hair secure it with a rubber band, plait the hair with my own hair and halfway change from plaiting to twisting all the way to the end and then wrap it around itself to form the knot)

I havent worn this hairstyle since my childhood, my mum would put my hair this way after washing and towel drying it. I hated it. Now, I think I kinda like it lol...funny how times change.

Lavinya - x